Gaslighting definition and how this effected me.

The Definition of Gas-lighting is: Gaslighting or gas-lighting^[1] is a form of mental abuse in which information is twisted/spun, selectively omitted to favor the abuser, or false information is presented with the intent of making victims doubt their own memory, perception and sanity.^[2] Instances may range simply from the denial by an abuser that previous abusive incidents ever occurred, up to the staging of bizarre events by the abuser with the intention of disorienting the victim.

Being a victim of a person that has a Narcissistic behavior is one of the worst types of abuse it messes your head up bad any your mind up bad.  Here is a link to understand it a little bit better. http://narcissisticbehavior.net/the-effects-of-gaslighting-in-narcissistic-victim-syndrome/

I have been gas-lit for years from men in my life and from my mother and some other people that I thought I could trust it has been a heard journey from being a victim of gas-lighting to being able to understand and move on from the mind set and the lies that have been told to me for years. PTSD and other such mental illnesses can expose themselves from being traumatized and made to believe the lies of those that are gas-lighting you. They mostly are prideful and narcissistic characteristics of those certain people that are being the abuser some of them might have even had the same abuse in their lives now I’m not say to feel sorry for them but, a little bit of empathy might let you be able to understand it and recognize in your own life and help you to get healed from it.  Please feel free to write your experiences in the comment box. I would be happy to assist you to the right resources for you to get the positive and proper help you need to get through your recovery of being abused as I have. Please Contact me anytime. Charitynaylorschmidt77@gmail.com

My hearing for SSD and SSI is today!

So, I have my hearing for SSD and SSI today at 11:30 in Harrisburg, PA. I’m anxious and I have been Anxious for a while anyway. I just had a med change and I am hoping that that med change gets my body back into balance. I have been in and out of Psychiatric Facilities since 2009 and Have been on psych meds from 2001 on. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in 2000 and I have been in doctor’s offices and on various cocktails of different meds since then. I have been through so much abuse and hurt in my life that I have just became almost reliable on those meds. i try to use my personal medicine and my coping skills that keep my mind and brain busy on other things rather then my old hurts and flash backs and PTSD. So wish me that best and I thank you for reading my blogs.

Sincerely,

Charity Schmidt

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Scars……..

SCARS- are given for a reason each scar has a story inside of it and along with it, as it festers and bleeds and heals and gets ripped open again and again.The pain that goes along with it is felt through our souls that tells a story. Just like a medical examiner after we have deceased the autopsy spells out the reason and the causes of death and life. We all have a story to tell in our hearts, souls and body and spirit. We might not know the full story of everything that has happened to us but, trust and believe that the MAKER and CREATOR does know He knows all things and how they happened and how things like our SCARS still remain.

Love……..

Love is just not a state of mind it is an action word as well as a feeling word. Your actions respond to your feelings and your feelings respond to your actions. Plus love is not selfish it is kind. Changing the other person is not the actions of true love. It is the action of a psychopath. Recognizing and respecting and understanding and having proper communication is what makes that relationship. Letting the other person live with their own identity and dignity forms and teaches each other better than just molding them to what others feel they should be plus that is a form of mental and emotional abuse.

Fear…….

FEAR is only the emotional hinder er and the destroyer to those things that we are not known to us like the unknown of our futures and present. We live by nature by our emotions the faith we need is to push us through those emotional hindrances and feelings and break the chains that keep us locked up in our own prisons. We don’t try to by no means to keep ourselves in lock up. We just don’t know how to overcome all of those bondages and chains that life has forced us into and that we ourselves only have been influenced by not knowingly and some knowingly. And May heaven help us and show His Mercy and Grace upon us all dealing and fighting through the Fears in our lives!

You are Loved!!!!!

You ARE LOVED, it doesn’t matter about your past YOU ARE LOVED, It doesn’t matter about your life now YOU ARE LOVED, It doesn’t matter who you are and what you look like YOU ARE LOVED! YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED! It doesn’t matter what tomorrow might bring YOU ARE LOVED NOW AND FOREVER!!!!!!

So, I have been in A relationship with another bi-polar individual and……..

He also has ADHD. Oi, sometimes he pisses me off beyond control and other times he is a sweet teddy bear. We are trying to keep communicating about our feelings with each other. It is definitely tough. I think he also could use a med. change but, I’m no Doctor and I just can’t tell him what to do. I have told him that I think he needs a new meds. added to his regiment or a switch with a different med. He is a great guy I love him a lot. He does a lot for me and he is a hard worker. And I love that about him. Anyway i just thought I would blog my thoughts today to see if there are others out there dealing with anything along the lines that I have been dealing with. Responses to this blog would be greatly appreciated. Thank You!

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